There was a moment today after reading a job description (that looked like it was made for me) that electric sparks ignited from my core and skittered down my arms and legs. Fingers poked my my eyebrows upward, air gasped into my lungs as if a vacuum sucked it in and a heat hugged my heart making it beat faster.

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There was a moment a few days ago when sitting on a train after a long day at a job assessment centre that a layer of fluff consumed me dulling the noise of everything and I saw myself leaning against the window as if my consciousness detached from my body.

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There was a moment today when preparing for a telephone interview that my brain felt like cotton and my stomach lining turned heavy like lead yet jiggly like jello.

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There was a moment today when I ran into him that squishy, black leeches swirled around in my stomach.

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There was a moment today when I was told that I made it to the telephone interview stage of an application that little restless spiders skittered under my skin and violently bubbling water, like when the water in a kettle is almost done, swelled in my veins.

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There was a moment today when I was home alone and heard the loud bang of something dropping downstairs that electricity ran through me so quickly that I couldn’t pinpoint the source and settled in my muscles, the inner tunnels of my ears and the back of my eyes bring everything – sight, sound, touch – into sharp focus. A wave of warm water coursed through me and the usual haze blanketed my senses once more when I found out it was just a bag dropping off a table.

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There was a moment today (an hour or so after waking up) that the shrill, mosquito-like buzzing under my skin, that I couldn’t reach no matter how much I scratched with my finger nails raw, faded to a dull thrum and then to blissful silence.

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